Thursday, March 12, 2009

Whats a Mom to Do...


Okay I'm feeling really guilty and beating myself up all day. This is my dilemma. My sister is getting married in August. Yeah for her im so happy for her. Anyways its besides the point here. Next week my Mom, Sister, and I will be traveling to Utah to pick out her weddings dress and some other wedding supplies. I am super duper excited to go on this trip and be a part of this wonderful journey with her. Its gonna be lots of fun helping her pick out a dress and shopping for the weeding. This is a once and a lifetime adventure for her and being her "Maid of Honor" im glad I will be there to help her out on such big decision.

My dilemma is that it just so happens My sweet little 23 month old Trevor has been actively engaged in potty training and sleep training. Even though hes a man of small words hes been able to find a way to communicate to me the best ways to make himself comfortable through these mile stones. I know i may sound corny, but I love my children and my family. They are everything I am made up of. This past week has been a very bonding experience for Trevor and I as we work through his struggles to become more comfortable in these miles stones. I have been very close to the sweet whisperings of the spirit to help guide me in the right direction as I discover Trevor's wants and needs.

Anyways we have found out this past week with many tears on both ends that as long as trevor is in boxers and get to sleep with the door open it has been smooth sailing through these mile stones. He's been happy as a lark to sleep with his door wide open. He even slept till 7:30 this morning without waking up. Door wide open! Who would have thought! But hey it works and it's what he wants. Also hes been doing excellent with potty training this week too. Barely any mistakes in the house and even out of the house. And even during the night he is waking up to go potty. This has been a dream come true and we have really found his comfort zone with both issues and am pleased to see his success.

Now im kicking myself because im going on this trip away from him. He'll be going to a day care and be away from me during the night. Oh how I worry about my sweet son. It rips my heart to be away form him during this big time for him, but on the other hand Ive gotta be there for my sister. I mean she only get married once in her lifetime. I want to be with my sister and my son at the same time. But it's just not possible. All I can gather is to pray my little heart out while I'm away that he wont retract back. But as we all know it's gonna happen wont it? Whats a Mother supposed to do?

2 Little Monkeys:

carrie @ the boonie life said...

Go! Go on your trip and trust that everything will be fine. Even if he does regress some, you can work with him when you get back. But this is also a milestone for Melanie. In my opinion, you'd regret it more if you didn't go with Melanie vs. Trevor regressing in potty training and/or sleeping.

Johnson Family said...

Yes you need to go be with your sister you can always retrain later but you can't go be there for your sister again it truely is once in a life time and kids always bounce back. Enjoy some fun bonding time with your mom and sister and enjoy time to yourself to be Keri instead of mommy you diserve it and you will come back feeling rejuvinated and have more patience and energy to be with your kids. Go Go Go and don't look back!