CANCER FREE

Miracles really do happen. I had experienced several of them while visiting my Thyroid Doctor in Utah. We drove up there knowing that this wonderful Doctor of mine is no longer covered under our new insurance. He reassured me everything would be fine and that he would make it possible. I didnt realize what that meant, but when I had met with him in person and began to remind him of my insurance issues I instantly fell into tears in fear that I would lose him as my Doctor forever. I just couldnt imagine or even phantom another option for me. That exact peace of not knowing another path all made sense that day in his office. He reached for a Kleenex and patted me on the back. Told me not to worry and not to cry that he is a man of his word and has assured me once again that insurance wont be an issue that he will work something out and make sure of it that Im not charged more then I can handle for this and all visits in the future. It was that moment that I knew he wasnt in this for money but rather because he truly loved and cared for me and my health. He cares for the happiness of my family and the joy in my soul. How did I get so lucky to find such a wonderful Doctor full of compassion and knowledge. Hes a true gem.

To top it off the "Hunstman Cancer Hospital" where I have gone in the past for surgery's and treatments have all the sudden decided to accept my insurance where just months before didt at all. Totally out of the blue and that shocked my Doctor and myself. So thats became just another thing not to worry about. Phew!

And last but not least the status of my cancer. This is by far the biggest miracle yet. You see this past 4 months and part of the months being pregnant I discovered a swollen lymph node on the right side of my neck. It freaked me out and put me in mass panic mode. When we lost the baby I tried to reason that maybe its because Im sick with cancer since this node is all swollen and bothered. Maybe it was Gods way of protecting me and putting my health first. I worried the whole time I was in Utah being tested. Doctor and I have known that this cancer is not yet in remission, for it keeps creeping up and has shown signs in nodes before in the past. But after many nerve raking hours at Hunstman cancer Hospital and several very uncomfortable needle biopsies in the collar bone ALL tests came out clean and Free of cancer. Not one trace of Cancer to be seen or detected in my entire body at this time in my life. Now how can I show cancer cells in my blood work and iffy nodes just a year ago and then NOTHING this time around. Its nothing but a beautiful miracle and testimony that God loves me and protects me from all things. He knows whats best for me in my life right now and its Motherhood and Wifehood above and before Cancer this time around. And that feels great. Doctor usually wants to see me twice a year , but has now moved it up to Once a year. And no more monthly blood work to keep a close eye on things, we are now moving up my blood tests up to every 6 months. In Doctors eyes I am cancer FREE. for the first time ever. I have never been able to say that, and boy does it feel good. With this long trail and challenge in my life I have accumulated some good qualities and bad qualities and its through my Father in Heaven that I can now begin to recognize and change the bad it gave me and turn it around to be nothing but good. Takes time but I have the Savior to guide and direct me in all things.

And above all the best news ever. Doctor gave me his blessing to try for baby #5. Yep we have been given the GREEN LIGHT to try again. I love having a Doctor that knows my inner hearts desires. That believes I can conquer anything and be more then a cancer patient but be a person of worth. He supports and loves to see me live my life to the fullest. He's honest in my care and wouldnt give me the green light if he didnt think my body was capable of a 9 months brake. That why I rely on his judgement in such a major decision. Though it scares me to tremendously to try for another baby, we know its time. I will forever be connected to my little angel baby in heaven and I am constantly reminded that his little spirit in Heaven only wants the best for me and our Eternal family. I wont let his legacy scare me or fill me with doubt. Its a blessing to be his Mother and my time will come where I can raise him in the Heavens above.

I am Eternally Grateful that I found Dr. Abraham and that the Lord continues to guides and direct his hands and mind in my care. You dont realize how important a Doctor can be until he becomes your reason for living. I would not be where I am today if it wernt for my loving Heavenly Father making all this possible. And through the Saviors love that has carried me through all my doubt and filled me with an abundance of peace in all things uncertain.


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