Goodbye Wound Clinic

Today was my last visit to the wound clinic. I packed up the whole gang this morning and took them in for the nurses and the Doctor to meet. The boys were wonderful through my last appt,Tyler feed the baby a bottle and the two younger boys played with tongue compressors. Then once the bandage was permanently removed by Doctor the tears and hugs began.

Its was a very bitter/sweet goodbye. Sweet in the way that my wound is FINALLY 100% healed and better. Whoot Whoot!! And bitter in the sense that the wonderful friendships with the nurses and Doctor that has been nourished through service and caregiving on a daily basis has now come to an end. Forever will I carry these lovely lady's in my heart. I will never forget the love and devotion they put forth in healing and making my recovery as comfortable as possible.There were many visit that ended in tears of pain and many visits that ended in smiles of joy, but none the less each visit was filled with compassion and empathy as we traveled this long road together.

Group Shot:
Doctor Kravan, Me, Nurse Cindy, Nurse Julie, Medical Assistant Jackie, and the boys.
Tears filled my eyes as I said my goodbyes to Nurse Cindy. It was good to see those tears of joy stream down her face as well as we both hugged each other tight. Nurse Cindy was one of those nurses that has a heart of gold yet is one tough cookie too. At times when the wound was gnarly looking it would make me sick just to gaze at it so I would close my eyes. There were times I would cry in pain the entire appt as Cindy would scrap and clean the wound. Even though she would hug and console me she wanted me to become tougher and more resilient to the pain. A very hard process for me but in time I was really able to manage my pain through her tough love. At times I didnt like Cindy much just because she wouldnt support me in my pity parties. But through time I realized its that tough character she has that made me endure and accept my challenges for all its worth and ride this road to recovery with faith and perseverance. She taught me to keep my eyes open and breath through the pain. She reminded my in times when I was in doubt to have more Patience and to keep plugging. Through her tough love I was able to build better confidence for myself in times of challenge and suffering. She is a wonderful caregiver and more than just a nurse a true friend and someone I will cherish and hold dear to my heart forever. We were both so glad to see this journey come to an end. Our eyes were both filled with tears of joy as we gave each other one last goodbye hug.

And this is Dr. Kravan. The wound doctor. It was always a great day when she would look over the wound and determine proper measurements to a healthy recovery.She always seemed so excited to see the progress from week to week. She and I were both glad we moved forward and finally went through with the reconstructive surgery. The healing process sure sped up after surgery. She placed me on a wound vac and helped heal me from several nasty infections. Towards the end she had to spend a couple appointments scraping and scratching the surface of the wound to ensure a smooth scare and finish. It made me realize this journey of suffering isnt over till its really over, even down the the last day.


And to my little baby Ryan,

Even though I spent the first 3 months of your life recovering from your birth, you are well worth every moment of suffering I endured. For this cute little smile of your's is sure to brighten even the darkest of my days and make it all worth it in the end. I Love you my little angel.
Doctor has now given me the green light to finally take baths and go to the gym. I have been waiting a LONG time for those restriction to be lifted. Yeah time to get my body back into shape and take those long relaxing baths after a long hard day.

Now its time for Perry and I to celebrate with that mini vaca we have been talking about once I am healed. We want to go to a nice spa and stay at a nice hotel with a fancy jacuzzi bathtub. Ill probably end up sleeping inside that fancy bath tub, but hey I deserve it. Ive waited a long time for a nice bath.

I loved the words that were spoken in General Conference this weekend. "We are given life experiences, all for the purpose of making us better people in the end". For that Im am eternally grateful for this experience and the growth is has given me physically, emotionally, and spiritually, as well as for my family too.

Oh Happy Day, Im glad you have finally arrived!