Changing My Blog

Have you ever seen a picture where words cant describe the beauty. Thats how I feel my life in this blog is portrayed. This is a raw look at my life from the outside appearance. I have realized through time that some of my post are a bit overwhelming and a bit to personal. I have learned as I try to capture and keep record of these most breathtaking experiences the post leaves an image of nothing more then an flat outward expression leaving behind emotion depth to my expressions. I just cant seem to capture the heart and the spirit of the entry.

Leading me into the realization that it's time for a change. I will be creating a separate "PRIVATE" blog where I can really let my guard down and express some of the most sacred experiences I have as a Mother. I feel that some moments in life just arnt for others to witness or to know of except for close family. I think its really important to create a raw journal of your life, but to keep it private. I have a great passion for Motherhood, I love teaching to gospel to my family, and I do my best in "Raising Noble Men". But part of being noble is being humble. I mean how many wonderful experiences do you think the Prophet had over this past week, yet he never once jots it down in a public blog, so why should I. Blogs should not be created in the support of making others feel envious or for ones acceptance, self worth/image. It's not about how perfect of a person you may look on the outside its what lies in the heart of the person and their true intentions. I dont want to be categorized as a Mother tooting her own horn. That is not my intentions with this blog and never has been, hence the reason for making this change. But as my children get older and encounter some great growth in their testimonies I feel very awkward trying to express that beauty of their life to the world around me. It's truly no ones business but theirs and our familys. I dont want to robb them of their privacy or to teach them to be flashy. That is not teaching them the true meaning of self worth or confidence. Who cares what the world thinks of you, it's what your heart is made up of when no one is watching. The only people that know your heart are the ones who take the time to get to know you on a personal and emotional level. Thats where the depth of the picture can be seen and true unconditional friendships can form. Its time I tone down and keep certain special memories to myself and my family. I dont want my kids to ever think that they have to prove themselves to the world or show off their good deeds. I will lead by the Prophets example and do my best in teaching our boys to be humble.

I will continue posting simple events so I can keep in touch with my blogging friends, but as far as describing the heart of my life, that will be recorded in a personal private journal from this moment on. But on that note I will still be proud of my true colors and will continue to share them with you on this blog, it will be just in a more conservative way and just not so deep in emotions. In this blog I may begin to seem ordinary and simple just as the little house in the picture above, but deep inside my heart the experiences I have as a Mother will continue to be deep and breathtaking.