.....and why did I do this?

I dont know about all you other Mommy's out there, but once in a blue moon Ill have these days where i feel like crawling in a hole and crying my eyes out in frustration and selling my kids to the gypsies. Yep I mean be honest we all have those days right? Thank goodness these days are very limited in our home, but today was that day. Why does everything just snowball downhill? it seems it gets worse before it gets better. I think its to humble us and remind us of how grand our good days really are. And to find the good in all things. Thats how I like to look at it. For me its just about survival, making it through the day alive. And I am proud to sit down here at the end of this crazy day and say to you " I survived...and am I am still alive"

After a long day of mile high dishes and laundry. Preparing a ginormous shopping list, paying the bills, running a couple errons, going to the farmers market, taming sibling rivalry, washing permanent marker off my couch, and chasing after my 3 little rascal I took all the kids to watch Tylers Gymnastics Performance. Tyler has only been in this program for 2 weeks so it was all new to us. We didnt know what to expect. We show up to find out that Tyler's part is after intermission. So that left me with 3 very hungry, very tired, and over wound little rascals to tend to in the meantime. Thank goodness I had the help of my mom and my sweet husband. This program was one LOUD, CHAOTIC, UNORGANIZED ball of mess. Spencer was screaming and running around the the building throwing temper tantrums, while Tyler and Trevor wrestle each other to tears. Poeple looking at me in disgust for not parenting up to their standards. Have they raised 3 boys? Its hard! But once my sweet son Tyler jumped on stage and did his cute little part...it made it all worth while Both babies screaming and crying, with clutter and chaos all around me, but for that moment everything stood still as I watched my son flip over bars, walk along the beam, weave between posts, bounce on the trampoline and received an award. To see the smile on his face and such a feeling of accomplishment in his eyes made me realize that my kids are my everything. I know I "will" forget all the bad in this day, but one thing I "wont" forget is the good. And thats seeing my oldest son preform to his best ability in a large crowd with strange faces and new talents.

Why did I do this?
Because the interests of my kids are the most important thing to me. Because its just what us moms do. We plug through the tough times and embrace the good times. I love my boys with all my heart thick and thin. We're a team...the "Lawson Team" Good Job Tyler. We love you.