Green Light...GO

It's a GO!!!!

My arms have been longing to hold a precious tiny newborn, my heart has been aching for those gentle kicks and pats in the belly, my eyes have been dreaming to see my 3 sons snuggled up with a newborn, my emotions have been starving to fill this void.

The wait is finally over, the fight and emotional tug a war is conquered. Doctors are pleased to see me healthy. Ive have been in remission now for over a year with no major climb in levels. I am remaining steady along the path or remission and my Doc has given me the GREEN light to have one last child. I love my doctor. He knows my love for family, he knows my desire to move forward and live life to the fullest.he told Perry and I that there has not been any significant research to link growth of thyroid cancer in pregnant patients. He told me that the one thing that did me in last time was that I had Irish twins and that the one benign nodule they found during Trevors pregnancy grew due to the sudden surprise of my 3rd pregnancy soon following the birth of my 2nd. Because I got pregnant so soon after Trevor they could not follow up with treatment for that potential node, therefor after 2 years of no treatment is grew to the point of concern.

With this pregnancy He will continue to keep my medicine at a comfortable high to hunker the cancer down and keep baby and me safe. If there were to show a small node for some reason then it can be treated after birth by overdosing me on my meds higher then normal till it comes down. A method Im well used to by now.

Point being that the growth of the cancer lies in the Lords hands not by the carelessness of being pregnant again. So please dont judge me! On that note Perry and I have spent many long grueling months praying and searching for the answers. I became very sick emotionally and physically on my I.U.D. ( Birth Control) and we decided its all around better to pull that out. By doing that it open up more questions and debates. As bad as my baby Fever has been I have learned to rely a 100% on my husband for guidance and support. I knew he would be inspired to make the right choice, for my mind was clouded with heart warming desires. In time Perry has jumped on board and has become really excited to try for the 4th. To him it felt right, felt safe, felt natural. He knows my Doctor wouldn't stir me in the wrong direction and our 3 little boys need a little sibling to even things out.

So with that said....may the Lord be our guide and our light. For through him we receive true inspiration and peace through our most confusing questions. It feels good to have peace and assurance that this is the right time. Wish us luck, and keep us in your prayers. we'll keep you all posted on this adventure for it will be our last, and I want to savor every moment of it.