Ti'll We Meet Again

Dear Sweet Child of Mine,

You may be small, but your spirit is MIGHTY. I see you have decided to stay with your Father in Heaven. I don't blame you this world is pretty crummy these days. But you will be surely missed, thats for sure. Thanks for sharing this small time with me, and allowing me to feel your tiny tickles. Though our time was limited together you remain ETERNAL in my heart. I have no doubt that we will meet again. We are an Eternal Family and we stick together. You have taught me so much. I have learned how precious life really is and to never take it for granite. I squeezed your 3 other brothers a little harder today and kissed their checks a little longer.

I had a strong feeling during this pregnancy that I was having Twins. When I noticed it was just you by yourself just 1 baby I found myself confused. Why would I have felt so strongly about having twins and there be only you only 1. I couldnt explain it but every time I would talk of you I referred to you as "they". I never understood this intuition until today. As I sat and cried with my doctor and fell deep in your fathers arms I eagerly awaited and pleaded to our Father in Heaven for peace and comfort. For answers. And it was in my sweet pondering and confiding with my doctor that I found that answer. I dont know if I will ever have twins, I do know that this journey of child bearing isnt over for me. I know this.... cause I was overwhelmed with the a great sense of peace as I put the pieces together. You are truly our 4th child and always will be, even if you were as tiny as a Jelly Bean youre a part of this family. I dont know if you will join your other unborn sibling here in the near future, but if not my intuitions have given me peace that the I am a Mother and Perry is the Father of 5 beautiful children. 4 of which we have the privilege of raising here on earth and 1 being YOU that we get to raise in the wonderful life after. What a sweet comfort that is. I am grateful for the gospel and the peace and comfort it brings in times like these.

Today the weather was beautiful. The birds were out chirping and the sun was warm and bright. And thats how I will always remember our journey...like "Sunshine" warm and bright.

"God be with you till we meet again"

I Love you..... my tiny little sunshine :)