A Special Request From Tyler

Tomorrow we leave for Utah to see my Cancer Doctor. We are taking Tyler and Trevor. Due to car issues we can not take Spencer this time. He will be staying home with MiMi. We are taking Perrys Jeep which unfortunately only has 4 seats. Its okay Spencers is still so young and really doesnt do well with car trips or long doctor visits.

Perry and I just usually go by ourselves and make a little getaway out of it, but this time Tyler made a special request. That he really wants to meet my cancer doctor, visit the big Temple and see Jospeph Smiths house. We went back and forth whether I should fly out with Just Tyler and I or what. After thinking long and hard we decided that if Tyler wants to meet the Doctor we didnt want him seeing my needle Biopsy's, so thats where we need Perry, and Trevor would be a wreck without his older brother by his side. And the icing on the cake is that Perrys Dad lives in Ogden and wants to meet the boys for the first time and rekindle things with Perry. Which is a wonderul answer to our prayers and a blessing. No reason to hold grudges within our own family. I think its so sweet that Tyler wants to be more involved in my cancer and know whats going on. I think its great that he has compassion for his Mama and wants to know shes okay. Just another great blessing hidden in this life long trial. Its wonderful. And his willingness to see the temple and learn more of the history of the church makes my heart glow. I Love watching his testimony blossom. Now something that isnt so fun to do sure is turning out to be quit the fun little family Vacation minus our little peanut. He can come along next time.

Though we have all this extra fun stuff on the side I am a little nervous about the whole reason we are going. Im hoping to get to the bottom of some lingering concerns(that im not yet willing to disclose) sorry. He is not covered under our insurance so I hope and pray that he will be able to cut me a great deal on our visit and make his charge to me very minimum. He is an awesome Doctor and as reassured me to not let the insurance issue get in the way of my treatment and our relationship. Hes willing to make it happen as best as he can and as comfortable to our wallet. I trust in him and the spirit gives me peace with all these issues. Spiritually I am confident everything will go fine and ill be in good health, my mortal mind not so much. Its a mental battle you could say. I will keep you all posted. Please keep me in your prayers for a healthy outcome and the green light to go ahead and try for BABY #5. I have seen the power of prayer work tremendously in my life and I will rely on the Lord to guide my in which every direction he feel suited for me at this time whether its good or bad.

Watch Out Utah Here We Come!!! I hear we are chasing this winter storm so im not looking forward to cold nasty weather. I need sunshine in utah not snow. Please!!!