Down Syndrome Results for Baby Ryan

Baby Ryan turned 1 month today. We have been waiting on pins and needles all month for these test results to come in. Even though his outer appearance seemed perfect with no signs of Downs we as a couple needed to know his health from within. Just for peace of mind. I called Doctor on Friday hoping for the results. Luckily they were in. Baby Ryan is free of all speculations. His test for Down Syndrome came back NEGATIVE. My little angel from Heaven was right. Everything is "OKAY". I cried happy tears and felt a sigh of relief in my heart and soul. What a journey this has been for my husband and I.

At a time in my life when my testimony was the weakest, this experience made me stronger and more focused. Not only did it help me grow spiritually it made me grow more as Mother, Wife and Friend. It made me really step back an evaluate my life. I helped me remove outside influences that smothered me and hinder my spirit. I hungered for peace and stillness. I changed things in my life that crowded my mind and perception of reality. I desired more quite time to pray and ponder. This trial helped me to build a stronger relationship with my Heavenly Father and Savior. It taught me how to rely on the spirit as a Mother and follow my intuitions. It brought a deeper spirit into our marriage and taught us how to focus on the positive side of this situation and accept it.So many people around me felt panicked and fearful for me and my family. Me, I felt still and peaceful deep in my soul. There really is no greater feeling then that of peace. Perry and I gainded a testimony that its not about what challenges the Lord gives us, but rather how we handle them and what they make us become in the end. We got through cancer we can get through this. I was not gonna let my Father in Heaven down, I wanted him to know and see that I could accept any and everything he gave me good or bad. A true lesson I will carry on through out the rest of my life.

I really feel like this was a test for me. A test to see if I could handle anything the Lord would give me on my plate. Would I accept such a great challenge as this or would I run away and let it crush my testimony. When the world around me crumbles to the ground would I hold onto my Savior for guidance or Cast blame and resentment on him? How strong is my testimony really? Can it withhold any storm?

Yes it can...Yes I can and will accept any and all challenges the Lords gives me. When Im weak and feel torn, I will not allow my testimony to waver. This is the lesson I learned and will need for the future as other challenges arise. I truly believe we are only given challenges in this life to help make us more equipped for the future storms in life.

To my sweet baby Ryan. You may be tiny in stature yet your spirit is mighty and strong. You knew all along that everything would be okay, and I felt that from you. Youre my little angel.

This song playing on my playlist was a song that gave me hope. I sang it everyday throughout my pregnancy. I knew once you were born I would be able to "see clearly" and that the "rain would be gone" and that I would be able to understand all "these obstacles that we had been in my way". And I knew deep within my soul that your birthday was gonna be a "bright and sunny day"and it was. I will always link this great journey to the words in this song. We all weathered this storm together (family and friends). And you truly are the "Rainbow we've all been waiting for".

We are so glad that Ryan is healthy and strong. What a blessing. Its pretty amazing the lessons such a tiny little baby can teach his parents before even entering into this world. Im sure this wont be the only lesson our children teach us. This is just one of the many and thats what is so beautiful about parenthood.