Under the "Weather"

We have had one exciting week. Tyler rode his bike for the first time with no training wheels, and Trevor turned 3 years old. I wish I had the energy to post and record these wonderful moments, but I seem to be feeling a little "Under the Weather" lately. Literally I feel like im on the same emotional roller coaster as the weather seems to be. I have a couple days where I feel bright and sunshiny and then I seem to fade just as the weather in town does. I feel so unpredictable lately. I wont lie, having 3 rowdy lovely boys to care for, laundry, dishes, bills, sleep training two toddlers, adjusting the behavior of my 5 year old, caring for my hubby, thyroid imbalances due to hormone changes, worries about having another child, and missing the one child we lost. All leaves me a little under the weather.

I just need the sunshine to come out. It just fills my soul with joy and gives the boys and I a chance to burn some energy and stress outside. Just as the seasons turn so will this challenging time for me in my life. All I do know is I have the most wonderful husband anybody could ask for. he announced to the boys tonight at dinner that Mommy was feeling a little sad this week and needed extra love. Tyler ran up to me and asked me what was wrong. I held him tight and told him that I miss the baby that was in my tummy. Some days are harder then others, and today is one of those days where its really hard. He ran faster then a flash down the hall and to his bed. came flying down the hall and gave me his favorite green frog. My eyes filled with tears. Soon after Trevor came running inside with a tulip he picked in the backyard along with his blanket.

All the sudden I felt a million times better. I love my boys...husband and all. This song playing on my play list says it all. Its such a comfort knowing that the man I married, my one true love is always there for me through the ups and downs, and believe you me we've had our fair share. He is unconditional and kind natured. How did I get so lucky.

So I will be like the spring blossoms and bear the storms and bitter chill and remain beautiful and strong. I will fight through till I am surounded in sunshine and peace. Soon it will be summer and soon I will feel better.