Today I was able to go to the Reno Temple for a wonderful session. There couldnt be any better timing then today as I gather my thoughts for tomorrows appointment with our specialist. Most of you being close friends already know about the baby, but for those of you that dont baby is showing possible signs of down syndrome. For those of you that didnt know please understand that I dont consider this a punishment, but rather a great blessing for me and my family. I have come to grips with things and have moved into a new phase of acceptance. I no longer grieve the possibilities or search for understanding... I just find myself leaning more on my Heavenly Father for peace and stillness. Through deep prayer and pondering I understand what a great privilege for me and my family to raise such a perfect spirit here on earth. What an honor. I find myself filled with emotions each time I draw nearer to these doctor visits. I just keep praying the babies heart and kidneys remain healthy and that this baby will hopefully prove the statistics wrong. I find myself more at peace as a visit the Temple more regularly. The thing I love the most is how still my soul is and how my heart and spirit is filled with the most peace I have felt in a long time. These tears I shed are not tears of sadness or tears of disappointment anymore, but rather tears of peace and stillness in my soul for whatever this baby is enduring. Tears of the abundance of comfort the spirit gives me and my family during this time. And the closeness I have felt lately with my Heavenly Father and my Savior. I am anxious to see our little baby tomorrow and rule more possibilities out. Of course I hope for the best. But what is the best? I go back and forth on that one. All I know is Perry and I will love this child with all our hearts not matter what the circumstances.
What is perfect? I know we all tend to think of perfect as flawless, undamaged or complete. But lately I have been pondering some wonderful talks given by General Authorities and have a better understanding that some of the Lord's choice blessings come imperfectly wrapped. And though the outside may be impaired the spirit is "perfect". What a great gift from heaven. I think perfect is all about how you perceive change and challenges in your life. Perfect lies within our attitudes and character. And as we draw nearer to this baby's arrival we are prepared for the worst, but hopeful for the best. For this child's experience on this earth is guided and directed by the attitude of it's earthy parents perfectly wrapped or not. Perry and I are ready to take on any challenge with the help of our savior in all things and with a happy, humble heart. So if you wanna know why I havnt talked about this sooner, its simply because I enjoy only thinking on the positive side of things and the more quite I am the more still I remain. But I have been very grateful for all of your prayers, thoughts and kind words of support. Thanks for staying positive with me and looking on the bright side of things. Thats the only way we as a family can remain at peace, for this trial is in the Lords hands and we wont know if this baby truly has down syndrome till baby is born and in our arms.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
What is Perfect?
Posted by Keri at 7:00 PM
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7 Little Monkeys:
Oh Keri! That sounds wonderful I really need to go back to the temple again too! I am so happy for you! The Temple is a great tool that we have! Just wanted to tell you how much we care and think about you and your family! I am glad that you have found peace in all situations! You are a very strong person and example! Thank you! We will always be here for you!Hope you have a great day and hope to talk to you soon!
My parents always told us growing up, "Richard is a celestial being... he is gaurenteed a spot in the celestial kingdom; we are not... now we have to all work hard to get there with him because we aren't gaurenteed like him." If this little one is in fact "blessed" with downs than your family and son's will be blessed too because now you will all have one mind centered on going to the celestial kingdom and that is our ultamate goal, right? Will it be easy? Heck no. But what in your marriage (or this life for that matter) has been easy with the cancer and all. If this one is in fact downs, you and Perry will be great parents who have been prepared to raise this little one. God bless. You'll do well no matter how the results come out. (P.S. If our home would have been been blessed with a special needs child, I would have hoped for a downs child because while there are medical hurtals to jump when they are infants, when they get older, many are highly functional and always happy. You are very blessed to have the possibility of such a sweet child in your home. Truly a Warrior of God. How many can say that about their child?) We love you guys. May the peace you feel now, continue through your appointment. Hugs and loves your way! :-)
I think about you all the time and finally had to join this blog just to leave a message for you. I just wanted you to know the doctors told the same thing to my sister in law with her second child and everything was normal. Also, I have seen many downs baby's at Chloe's swim class and they are all so beautiful, happy, sweet tempered children. Your family would definitely be blessed. Also, my mom is moving to Carson this weekend and has 30 plus year experience with children development as a career including those with special needs if you ever need advice.
I think you are amazing. I so enjoy reading about your and your family. There is so much joy and gratitude in everything you do.
This is just one more proof of that.
However the Lord blesses your family, and whatever the circumstance, I KNOW you will have joy, because that is who you are.
I feel honored to know you.
Thanks you guys. Its so ncie to knwo I have great friends that love and support me with positive feed back and uplifting words of encourgament. I need that the most as we wait these next 5 months. thanks again
i'm not sure what the basis for this possibility is, but if it is the blood test we all get-that too is not all that reliable-they told me the same thing with annie and no i didn't get an amnio either. if it was it was...turned out i was not as pregnant as they all thought i was and if the test if given too early you get wrong results
it will be fine-no matter the outcome
Thanks Joanna, Yes That is usually the most common reason for false alarms is the weeks being off and not being tested at the right time. I do know testing to early can lead to false positives. Unfortunatly in my case they did indeed rule out that my weeks were wrong but we waited a nother couple of weeks to be the accurate week and retested positive still for downs. so my chances and percentage went up in this case being that my weeks are right and test are still showing positive. but what do the doctors really knwo in comaparison to our Savior and Heavenly Father. they are really in chanrge of the fate of this little one. I am just merly along for the ride and we will have to wait and see at this stage of the game once baby is born what circumstances we face. thanks for your thoughts and prayers.
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