28 weeks- We have a Name!

I am 28 weeks now, in all my fears this pregnancy.... I never drempt I would make it this far. Its a true blessing to carry this little angel each and every day. Though my body hasnt dealt well with this pregnancy my heart swells each time I feel him kick or squirm inside of me. It sure makes all the aches and pains worth while as I feel and watch him grow. He loves to rest when Im on the go, but the minute I settle down at night and lay in bed.... its almost as though he taken on a new sport of kick boxing. Hes one bouncy happy little jumping bean. Its my most favorite time of the day to lay quietly and feel his little love pats and squirms. I just love knowing hes alive and well.

Perry jobs allows him to get to know some great people in the medical field. Its been a true blessing to have the help of one of his buddies Brian who works at a local pharmacy. He hooked me up with the most incredible pair of "Thigh High" compression hoses for my one really bad leg. I was able to glady throw away my full body compression hoses and just wear one now that doesnt restrain or trap my entire lower half of my body. Its been night and day. I can now function and go back to my normal tasks without agonizing pain. Its been a true blessing that Im extremely grateful for. Now the new struggle I am battling is keeping my iron and blood sugar levels up. I have always been such a healthy eater until this pregnancy. I have craved and been eating nothing but greasy fast food, quick and easy snacks like cereal or a piece of bread. I have reverted back to eating white flour and more potatoes. I have never liked potatoes. I think my body has been starving for sugars and irons but greesy hamburgers and nasty fries along side of cereal 10 times day just isnt cutting it. I am now slowly introducing my old time favorite foods, spinach salads, whole grain breads and pastas, fruits, and home cooked meals that hold more red meat in them. I am hoping to retrain my crazy unfocused body into eating better so I can heal from delivery better and have better stamina throughout these last couple of months. Eating has become a chore rather than a hobby, so as crazy as my days have been I dont take enough time out to nourish and tend to my own needs and health. I am ready to take action though for myself and baby. Enough of this junk food business. Lets get back on track.

A couple weeks ago we went to the Pumpkin Patch in G-Ville. There each kid picked out their very own mini pumpkin to set on the table. Trevor was very adamant about picking out a baby pumpkin for his little unborn baby. The kids have been talking about a certain name now for over a month. Its a name that I hold dear to myself. The name is RYAN JACOB LAWSON. Ryan after my Brother, Jacob discovered in my genealogy. Perry and I are never ones to name our baby before hand. We always want to see and hold them before naming them. But this name has been so strong in my heart and in my soul I couldnt ignore the promptings anymore. I tried to think of other names but each and every time I would hear, speak or see the name RYAN something inside of my would glow and shine. I would find myself smiling with joy and my heart filled with love as I think of that name.
Ryan is my brothers name. A very strong, loving, fearless kinda guy. I love his take on life and attitude towards hardships. Hes been through a lot in his lifetime but never cease to amaze me his devotion and willingness to search for inner peace through all struggles. Hes definition of fears is one that has cured many of my weak points as a Mother. He looks at fear as a harness. He has taught me to live life to the fullest and search for the fun in everything. He has the biggest heart and has shown me great love and support through health issues and life struggles. We can carry on the most blunt and honest conversations together which build and unite us as Brother and Sister. I call him a true friend and I am so lucky to have such a good friend as my brother. This name couldn't be any more fitting for such a special sweet little boy. I cant wait to hold this little angel of mine and finally call him my little Ryan and give him kisses and hugs.

Last weekend on our date night I discovered these cute little baby outfits for little Ryan. I just love the Helicopter jammies. Fits him well since Unlce Ryan is a pilot and flies helicopters for a living in the army. I may just bring Little Ryan home in that cute little jumper. And the tiny preemie lion jumper just makes me gitty. I LOVE orange and so when I noticed that tiny little lion I couldnt help but shiver with excitement. And hey.... heres a little corny rhyme I came up with. "Heres to our soon to be Flying Ryan who roars like a Lion". I know Im cheesy sometimes.

WE LOVE YOU BABY RYAN!!!!!!